Sorry for the hiatus. I needed to take some time to breathe and look after myself!
I’ll be sharing what we’ve been up to these past few months in the next week and of course keep you updated on how back to school goes for the boys.
For now this is where I’m at:
At the end of last year I burnt out pretty hard. You may remember my posts. I wanted to share with you all how I’m doing now. Better, much better. I’m on a low dose of anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medication. It took time to settle in my system and I felt a bit dizzy and light headed the first few days but as the weeks and months have gone on, I’ve felt more and more like myself. The person I thought was lost. I’ve been able to do family activities I wouldn’t in the past, be a fun mother and wife and think about life’s problems with more clarity. For me depression wasn’t feeling sad. It was feeling numb. It was waking up and thinking what’s the point, it’s the same shit every day. Thinking nothing will get better or change. Just getting through every single day but not seeing the point in why. Someone would be talking to me yet I wouldn’t hear a single word they said. I started forgetting things like locking our house doors before leaving the house. I lived in a fog where the only real emotion I felt was panick. I would panick over the most irrational things and there was no reasoning with me. After finally feeling like myself again I’ve decided that I need to take better care of my mental and physical health. So this week I’ve started a detox and exercise program. I need to do this to not only better my health and feel better but to be a better example and mother for the boys.